I started out just having fun with my friends drinking, smoking bud. Then things progressed slowly. I was around a lot of drug dealing and everything that comes with the really good and the really bad.
I was locked up in a court-ordered drug offender program at 15. I was arrested later at 18 with pills and pot. 2 felonies at 18. I felt like I had no choice but to live that life. I graduated and had an AA degree but I stopped the 2-year program I was doing at the hospital because I was using and selling Oxycontin seemed like better idea at the time. Obviously it wasn’t.
My addiction robbed me of a happy fulfilling life for 20 years. It took me leaving my family and having to live with people I didn’t really care for. I learned a lot about myself and why I kept doing the same destructive behavior for years. Life sucks sometimes and if you don’t react in the right way your f***ed. Its having the right tools and friends and support as well as perseverance. Without those things you will fail or be very unhappy.
I OD’d 4 times and by God’s grace I was found and brought back to life ever time. I thought opiates were my joy in heaven but they were my HELL. I will have to deal with this daily for the rest of my life.
I want to go back to school and finish up my degree to help people realize that drugs are a lie and they robbed me of a much happier better life. I’m very lucky I now have a home and, most importantly, I have a family that I almost threw away.
I would like to help anyone I can. You can have a life without drugs, its actually pretty cool.
